Weird. So...as u can see...haven't posted much lately. Verizon has had Sasser problems...so internet at home has been really bad. Work also busy...as i'm trying to organize things...plus slowly starting to move into the new house.

and now...Blogger has changed completely. Wow...too much.

Anyways...i've made the time to post now...so better use it wisely. This past weekend was fairly interesting. Went to Utah to surprise grammy on her 75th Bday. It was really good to see her again...and she was really happy to see everyone there as well. Got to see my dad's side of the family. I'd have to say...of all of them, still closest to the Mitchells in Washington. As my brother said, probably cuz they are disney fanatics like us. (speaking of which..i should go use my pass again). Trying to reconnect...but my dad's side will be harder since they are so spread out...plus i'm still working on the local ones first.

Funny...making it sound like "work" to just talk to your family. Actually, not so funny...but just being realistic. As i said before, family to me is not simply defined by blood...but those that i really hold close to me. I've seen members of my extended family just do things...that u wouldn't do to your enemies...let alone friends or family. In the end...realistically...i realize we're all human...and to be human is to be flawed.

Driving in the car this morning...i know my bday is coming up this friday...and i really don't have anything planned. I started remembering how as a kid, i was always envious of the "popular" person in school..the ones who knew everyone (i think a lot of people shared that feeling). I had my small set of friends which was cool...but u know...to be that other guy...its a common human desire.

Fast forward to present day...where i know people pretty much wherever i go(kinda bold, but mostly true). Disneyland, Magic Mountain, clubs, schools...wherever. Sounds like i should be happy...but...i'm not. Its never been about quantity of people. Don't get me wrong..its nice knowing people...just cuz i like meeting people.. but i don't have much depth with them. There are very few that i do.

So..as i sit there in the car..thinking about friday...i think thru a couple of people i think to be close friends...but even then..i come to think of my family as my core group. The small group of family that i'm starting to reconnect with on tuesday nites... they are the starting point. Slowly and sure enough...i'll get back everyone. I'm here to start things again...when they are ready.