These changing times
I'm writing this now from a gadget on my igoogle page. Needless to say there are a lot of things changing right now and i feel its for the better. I've been busy with work and seems like the house project will get started soon. I'm searching still for a lasting peace and have found myself returning to a higher inspiration. This past weekend i was reacquainted with something i thought i had lost...time. I stopped things and just relaxed. I couldn't stop all the noise and activities around me..but i was able to minimize it..and find some peace. More to come..changes on the way.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
End of oct, all of november, and now midway through dec...
I think Facebook may have wounded my blog...but all is not lost. I'd say killed, but i'm here aren't i? I miss my outlet to just say how i feel.
2008 is still transitional...
Not much of a Christmas feeling this year. Some of my roommates heading to Japan for their wedding and the living room is a mess. Haven't put up the tree or kept with the ornament tradition, let alone do any xmas shopping. Really just in no mood this year and the rain doesn't help.
Had my highs and lows these past months and now just settled. A general malaise right now but also a sense of adventure for the upcoming year. I just want to get some things out of the way and i can move on. House plans should get approved soon. After that, get the contractor going and this elephant in the room will be gone.
This year we welcomed Jordan and now little Nicholas to the family. Rozelle rescued four kittens and now looks after Jake and Dexter. Kristine just moved out to an apartment and bought a car. Kuya Zandy welcomed me to a Pacquiao fight and his home twice as well as just brought me back to the time when i had my kuyas looking out for me. Samantha is looking towards a future abroad and my brother is happy with the life he has with Ashley. My parents are active in their projects and all seems well in the world.
As for me...things are good. 2009 here we come...I can already tell it will be life changing.
I think Facebook may have wounded my blog...but all is not lost. I'd say killed, but i'm here aren't i? I miss my outlet to just say how i feel.
2008 is still transitional...
Not much of a Christmas feeling this year. Some of my roommates heading to Japan for their wedding and the living room is a mess. Haven't put up the tree or kept with the ornament tradition, let alone do any xmas shopping. Really just in no mood this year and the rain doesn't help.
Had my highs and lows these past months and now just settled. A general malaise right now but also a sense of adventure for the upcoming year. I just want to get some things out of the way and i can move on. House plans should get approved soon. After that, get the contractor going and this elephant in the room will be gone.
This year we welcomed Jordan and now little Nicholas to the family. Rozelle rescued four kittens and now looks after Jake and Dexter. Kristine just moved out to an apartment and bought a car. Kuya Zandy welcomed me to a Pacquiao fight and his home twice as well as just brought me back to the time when i had my kuyas looking out for me. Samantha is looking towards a future abroad and my brother is happy with the life he has with Ashley. My parents are active in their projects and all seems well in the world.
As for me...things are good. 2009 here we come...I can already tell it will be life changing.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Hello blogger.
Sorry its been too long but really been sorta busy. Sadly since choosing facebook as my photo album holder, i find myself on there more often. Either way, i have not forgotten how you blogger have been here since the beginning, as my catalog and archive of my thoughts, feelings, and experiences.
I was gonna leave it at that and go back to "work" of watching the football game..but @#@ it...lets just type.
Updates.
I'm comfortable with a specific contractor now and i just need to see some contracts and the housing project can begin. In order to do so, i've become very aware of my expenses and doing what i can to afford it all. Its quite and endeavor but very worth it.
My current philosophy has been "don't second guess anymore". Feeling a lot better since doing that. Taking chances and so far they have been fruitful. More on that as things happen.
Its October now and playing with my cousin's mila's belly button (while playing Rockband) reminds me how much i love my family and thankful for everything in my life. Its been a trying time for many with this economy and events, so i'm glad that its the simple things with my family and friends and make like enjoyable. For that I am happy.
PMX is coming up soon. Politics have become childish and annoying. Halloween is in 2 weeks and i'm still not sure what i'm doing for it. Untill next time then faithful readers =)
Sorry its been too long but really been sorta busy. Sadly since choosing facebook as my photo album holder, i find myself on there more often. Either way, i have not forgotten how you blogger have been here since the beginning, as my catalog and archive of my thoughts, feelings, and experiences.
I was gonna leave it at that and go back to "work" of watching the football game..but @#@ it...lets just type.
Updates.
I'm comfortable with a specific contractor now and i just need to see some contracts and the housing project can begin. In order to do so, i've become very aware of my expenses and doing what i can to afford it all. Its quite and endeavor but very worth it.
My current philosophy has been "don't second guess anymore". Feeling a lot better since doing that. Taking chances and so far they have been fruitful. More on that as things happen.
Its October now and playing with my cousin's mila's belly button (while playing Rockband) reminds me how much i love my family and thankful for everything in my life. Its been a trying time for many with this economy and events, so i'm glad that its the simple things with my family and friends and make like enjoyable. For that I am happy.
PMX is coming up soon. Politics have become childish and annoying. Halloween is in 2 weeks and i'm still not sure what i'm doing for it. Untill next time then faithful readers =)
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
This has been a horrible past few days...lots of stress and lots of drama....
yet through it all...i still found my peace.
Hi special one
I found this video a number of months ago. It details my favorite parable of the prodigal son and actually resolved many of the questions i had about it (yeah..i always felt i was the one who stayed, not strayed). Not only that, it reached out to me and gave me peace.
On another note, I think i'm going to use facebook's public album ability to host my pictures. Its just a lot easier than using other 3rd party sites.
yet through it all...i still found my peace.
Hi special one
I found this video a number of months ago. It details my favorite parable of the prodigal son and actually resolved many of the questions i had about it (yeah..i always felt i was the one who stayed, not strayed). Not only that, it reached out to me and gave me peace.
On another note, I think i'm going to use facebook's public album ability to host my pictures. Its just a lot easier than using other 3rd party sites.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Friday, June 06, 2008
So it took jury duty to slow me down and finally give me time to update this thing.
Costa Rica - Overall the trip was good. We travelled lush countrysides, stayed next to an active volcano, walked through the cloud forest, then waded on the black sand beaches. I had a great time Canyoning through waterfalls, Ziplined through the trees and rafting in the river. Much of the time was spend finishing my Malcolm X book and quiet moments just thinking...and mostly missing home. The group i was with was "ok" but just felt particularly stressed due to one person.
Yosemite - I have to contrast Costa Rica with Yosemite which was the BEST TRIP EVA!!! =p Our trip was not without its stresses, but overall it proves to me that to me its always about the people. Yosemite was equally beautiful, if not more so. We hiked 2 waterfalls, saw the dam, ate at a nice hotel, saw a bear, dear, and raccoon. I reconnected with family and built even deeper bonds.
House stuff - The plans for the house have been ok'd with some minor changes. We're looking at a timeline of being out of the house by Aug with the hopes that the complete renovation would be completed in November. Not likely we'll have Halloween party this year, but overall we'll have a great place to live when we get back. I love my roommies as even though we could go separate ways while the construction is going on, we're still looking to stay together. It truly is family at the house.
Other than that, my crisis at work seems to have stabilized. A few months ago, my company stock hit a 40% drop on its stock so things in the office rapidly changed. For a while there i seriously feared for my career. Fortunately things have gotten better even though they are still a bit stressed. In turn i find myself a lot busier at work, that plus juggling everything going on, has contributed to my absence.
Anyways, I'll post pics when i can.
Costa Rica - Overall the trip was good. We travelled lush countrysides, stayed next to an active volcano, walked through the cloud forest, then waded on the black sand beaches. I had a great time Canyoning through waterfalls, Ziplined through the trees and rafting in the river. Much of the time was spend finishing my Malcolm X book and quiet moments just thinking...and mostly missing home. The group i was with was "ok" but just felt particularly stressed due to one person.
Yosemite - I have to contrast Costa Rica with Yosemite which was the BEST TRIP EVA!!! =p Our trip was not without its stresses, but overall it proves to me that to me its always about the people. Yosemite was equally beautiful, if not more so. We hiked 2 waterfalls, saw the dam, ate at a nice hotel, saw a bear, dear, and raccoon. I reconnected with family and built even deeper bonds.
House stuff - The plans for the house have been ok'd with some minor changes. We're looking at a timeline of being out of the house by Aug with the hopes that the complete renovation would be completed in November. Not likely we'll have Halloween party this year, but overall we'll have a great place to live when we get back. I love my roommies as even though we could go separate ways while the construction is going on, we're still looking to stay together. It truly is family at the house.
Other than that, my crisis at work seems to have stabilized. A few months ago, my company stock hit a 40% drop on its stock so things in the office rapidly changed. For a while there i seriously feared for my career. Fortunately things have gotten better even though they are still a bit stressed. In turn i find myself a lot busier at work, that plus juggling everything going on, has contributed to my absence.
Anyways, I'll post pics when i can.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
gotta get away?
Heading off to Costa Rica. Tagging along on my coworker's trip, but looking forward to getting a new perspective on things. Just the short itinerary of the trip.
Arenal (3 days) - next to the volcano. Hike/Hot Springs, Rapids, Canyoning.
Monteverde (2 days) - Ziplining and Rainforest Canopy tour.
Montezuma (1 day) - Black sand beach and possible snorkeling.
Hoping for lots of pictures for when i get back. See you next month.
Heading off to Costa Rica. Tagging along on my coworker's trip, but looking forward to getting a new perspective on things. Just the short itinerary of the trip.
Arenal (3 days) - next to the volcano. Hike/Hot Springs, Rapids, Canyoning.
Monteverde (2 days) - Ziplining and Rainforest Canopy tour.
Montezuma (1 day) - Black sand beach and possible snorkeling.
Hoping for lots of pictures for when i get back. See you next month.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Thoughts....
"But really the reason why they (people) are attracted to each other is because they each have what the other person lacks. Put these two apparently opposite things together, and they make a whole, complete, well-rounded entity.
In human relationships, opposites attract, but there has to be some area of likeness in the two forces that makes it so that they stick together." -comment
"As long as you want it so bad, it's not going to happen - the only way it's gonna work is if it doesn't matter . . . " -Wristcutters: A love story
"But really the reason why they (people) are attracted to each other is because they each have what the other person lacks. Put these two apparently opposite things together, and they make a whole, complete, well-rounded entity.
In human relationships, opposites attract, but there has to be some area of likeness in the two forces that makes it so that they stick together." -comment
"As long as you want it so bad, it's not going to happen - the only way it's gonna work is if it doesn't matter . . . " -Wristcutters: A love story
Monday, April 07, 2008
Ok..maybe i'm not completely at peace, but its nice to be able to look at things with new eyes and realize how important and actually unimportant things are. I am thankful and I am blessed to have everything i have in life...and as far as those earlier things...i sometimes just look and laugh to myself. In the end..i'm feeling really good.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Some brief updates in my oh so-so life.
I've gotten to mental on this whole dating relationship phase. Just about to give up on pretty much everything. I've been told i'm a rare find...guess the ones i'd like to meet just aren't looking or willing to take the chance. Its not worth the stress right now.
Speaking of relieving stress, try to pick me and my cousin out of these videos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7USm6zy_s-U
http://www.mefeedia.com/entry/pillow-fight-l-a/7354985/
Otherwise, did a whirlwind trip to vegas for a secret celebration with fun times in Walnut afterward. Inspired me to try to get into more woodworking.
Completed my M1 class test and now have my new license. Another pic for about 4 more years.
Plans with architect are almost finalized. Looking to be a Summer construction. I may be homeless on my birthday.
Tell me what you like better Gable or Hip? Still working on a mixed design.
St. Patty with my Irish family =p
Easter with family, then a special laker game with my Aunt.
Cerritos family coming over to visit for an nice evening. Returned the gesture with a visit to TGIF Cerritos =p. Parents still too busy.
Tried Snowboarding again. still not getting it. I may try Skiing next season.
Hiked up Echo Mt with cousin, her coworkers and garland. It was nice to get out and do something.
Sometimes i wish i could just scream.....
Trying to find the right environment for me.
Personal turmoils, a few restless nights, seeking an inner peace and not sure how to find it. Hopefully when things around me start settling down, things will get better.
Recent visit from friends from my past making me wonder...why can't i be happy?
Still seeking my passion....well..my passion is people. Unfortunately its a passion you can't pursue on your own.
I've gotten to mental on this whole dating relationship phase. Just about to give up on pretty much everything. I've been told i'm a rare find...guess the ones i'd like to meet just aren't looking or willing to take the chance. Its not worth the stress right now.
Speaking of relieving stress, try to pick me and my cousin out of these videos.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7USm6zy_s-U
http://www.mefeedia.com/entry/pillow-fight-l-a/7354985/
Otherwise, did a whirlwind trip to vegas for a secret celebration with fun times in Walnut afterward. Inspired me to try to get into more woodworking.
Completed my M1 class test and now have my new license. Another pic for about 4 more years.
Plans with architect are almost finalized. Looking to be a Summer construction. I may be homeless on my birthday.
Tell me what you like better Gable or Hip? Still working on a mixed design.
St. Patty with my Irish family =p
Easter with family, then a special laker game with my Aunt.
Cerritos family coming over to visit for an nice evening. Returned the gesture with a visit to TGIF Cerritos =p. Parents still too busy.
Tried Snowboarding again. still not getting it. I may try Skiing next season.
Hiked up Echo Mt with cousin, her coworkers and garland. It was nice to get out and do something.
Sometimes i wish i could just scream.....
Trying to find the right environment for me.
Personal turmoils, a few restless nights, seeking an inner peace and not sure how to find it. Hopefully when things around me start settling down, things will get better.
Recent visit from friends from my past making me wonder...why can't i be happy?
Still seeking my passion....well..my passion is people. Unfortunately its a passion you can't pursue on your own.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
Friday, March 07, 2008
Ok..now for something different....
I'm pretty new to this dating thing, and even more so to the "rules" of online dating. I guess i've been fortunate that my past relationships happened naturally. Mutual attraction/interest, casual outings that led to deep and long term relationships (about 3 years for both). I'm probably pretty lucky to say that I'm still on good terms with my exes and if asked, they probably would say good things about me.
However, since my breakup last year...the natural thing just hasn't happened. I blame it on the lack of new social outlets. Its not college anymore and the whole work or church (when i decide to go again) just hasn't sustained. I thought a dating site would be a good thing, at least for me to be more proactive and get to know people. Unfortunately, me being "proactive" has, in retrospect, branded me as too bold and overall brazen (Oh geez, i actually asked people out to coffee before chatting with them). So far i've been reprimanded by one, comforted by another, and pretty much ignored by most. To each his own i guess but oh well.
I guess its just tough, actually somewhat sad, since it reflects much on today's society and general distrust. Talking with friends, sifting through these journals about guys that are players and jerks, girls who are "looking" yet never reply and general "bad news" when people transition from online to in person...obviously that would make one second guess taking chances. Why should they, when they are comfortable at home alone, in front of the computer, browsing this site?
Unfortunately, its in taking chances that one can achieve things. So that is something i will continue to do. Maybe not so much on meeting online, but going out (even more than i do now) to watch live bands, actually dance at clubs, explore new restaurants and general "just plain living". =)
So..see you all around. If you ever want to come along, just let me know.
I'm pretty new to this dating thing, and even more so to the "rules" of online dating. I guess i've been fortunate that my past relationships happened naturally. Mutual attraction/interest, casual outings that led to deep and long term relationships (about 3 years for both). I'm probably pretty lucky to say that I'm still on good terms with my exes and if asked, they probably would say good things about me.
However, since my breakup last year...the natural thing just hasn't happened. I blame it on the lack of new social outlets. Its not college anymore and the whole work or church (when i decide to go again) just hasn't sustained. I thought a dating site would be a good thing, at least for me to be more proactive and get to know people. Unfortunately, me being "proactive" has, in retrospect, branded me as too bold and overall brazen (Oh geez, i actually asked people out to coffee before chatting with them). So far i've been reprimanded by one, comforted by another, and pretty much ignored by most. To each his own i guess but oh well.
I guess its just tough, actually somewhat sad, since it reflects much on today's society and general distrust. Talking with friends, sifting through these journals about guys that are players and jerks, girls who are "looking" yet never reply and general "bad news" when people transition from online to in person...obviously that would make one second guess taking chances. Why should they, when they are comfortable at home alone, in front of the computer, browsing this site?
Unfortunately, its in taking chances that one can achieve things. So that is something i will continue to do. Maybe not so much on meeting online, but going out (even more than i do now) to watch live bands, actually dance at clubs, explore new restaurants and general "just plain living". =)
So..see you all around. If you ever want to come along, just let me know.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Sometimes i forget...
I always figured an invite to coffee/tea would be the best approach. Its fairly casual, allows for conversation, validation of who you are talking to, inexpensive, public area, and non-invasive to one's personal space. You're only really giving of your time and learning about a person.
I guess i forget how scary the "online" world can be for some people until i got a response from someone. Of course i only had good intentions, but that doesn't always translate well via views on the profile or a message. My apologies for those that may have been taken offense to this "direct" approach. If you prefer another method (message/IM) to get to know each other, i'm game.
Guess it can be a double edged sword at times. As much as i may wish my potential relationship with would somehow "find" me waiting here, my choices are either wait or just be proactive meeting people, gaining friends, and making connections. Right now, I've decided to take it into my own hands and do the searching. For those women that do take the same chances and message, IM someone, I applaud you. I'm actually attracted to strong women =).
Interesting huh, I'm not interested in the woman that needs me, more so the woman that challenges me and makes me a better man. My take on relationships is that they are a mutually shared experience, each person their own...but gaining by association.
I always figured an invite to coffee/tea would be the best approach. Its fairly casual, allows for conversation, validation of who you are talking to, inexpensive, public area, and non-invasive to one's personal space. You're only really giving of your time and learning about a person.
I guess i forget how scary the "online" world can be for some people until i got a response from someone. Of course i only had good intentions, but that doesn't always translate well via views on the profile or a message. My apologies for those that may have been taken offense to this "direct" approach. If you prefer another method (message/IM) to get to know each other, i'm game.
Guess it can be a double edged sword at times. As much as i may wish my potential relationship with would somehow "find" me waiting here, my choices are either wait or just be proactive meeting people, gaining friends, and making connections. Right now, I've decided to take it into my own hands and do the searching. For those women that do take the same chances and message, IM someone, I applaud you. I'm actually attracted to strong women =).
Interesting huh, I'm not interested in the woman that needs me, more so the woman that challenges me and makes me a better man. My take on relationships is that they are a mutually shared experience, each person their own...but gaining by association.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
False Pretenses and Dating*
So i was talking to this girl the other day about approaches to dating. Not sure if i'd like to call it the limits of the English language and how loaded* words can get, but i basically gave her my approach.
When i meet/date* (another loaded word) people, i want to get to know them. For me it starts out as friends and as i get to know them better, it could gradually become something romantic (if the spark is there). I just stay true to myself and see if any feelings come out of the interactions. If not, then in the end at least i have made a friend.
Her response is that she has a different approach to someone she is dating, rather than one she is just friends with. She said, in her words "i'm a different person when i date". Of course you can imagine the type of reaction i got when i said i just wanted to be friends* first (again..loaded language). Now while i can understand her approach, i just don't necessarily agree with it.
I AM a romantic guy. I like to go all out with candle light and fancy dinners, flowers, candy, etc....all seems pretty cliche actually when you write it down, but that is what she was looking for. I would love to spoil my partner with everything...but i would have to get there emotionally first. Its not something you can really achieve on the first meeting. Anything otherwise would be fake for me and unfortunately raise the girl's expectations. what happens after the honeymoon eh?
Anyways, what are we all here on this dating site for? Its safer than craigslist and a bit more focused than myspace/facebook. I'm sure we didn't expect ourselves to be looking for people in this manner, but the state of the world today with technology and reality TV, pretty much everyone is at home on their asses in front of some glowing screen. Plus..we're all a bit thrifty to shell out for the pay sites, or avoidant since it would be the final admission that we are stuck in a rut.
I don't message unless i'm interested. For me to get interested, there would have to be something about you. Typically it's in the eyes, a keen fashion sense, witty repertoire, sincere smile or just that certain something. After my attempt, i leave it to fate.
Probably gonna try a blind date site..where at least people just want to actively do something.
So i was talking to this girl the other day about approaches to dating. Not sure if i'd like to call it the limits of the English language and how loaded* words can get, but i basically gave her my approach.
When i meet/date* (another loaded word) people, i want to get to know them. For me it starts out as friends and as i get to know them better, it could gradually become something romantic (if the spark is there). I just stay true to myself and see if any feelings come out of the interactions. If not, then in the end at least i have made a friend.
Her response is that she has a different approach to someone she is dating, rather than one she is just friends with. She said, in her words "i'm a different person when i date". Of course you can imagine the type of reaction i got when i said i just wanted to be friends* first (again..loaded language). Now while i can understand her approach, i just don't necessarily agree with it.
I AM a romantic guy. I like to go all out with candle light and fancy dinners, flowers, candy, etc....all seems pretty cliche actually when you write it down, but that is what she was looking for. I would love to spoil my partner with everything...but i would have to get there emotionally first. Its not something you can really achieve on the first meeting. Anything otherwise would be fake for me and unfortunately raise the girl's expectations. what happens after the honeymoon eh?
Anyways, what are we all here on this dating site for? Its safer than craigslist and a bit more focused than myspace/facebook. I'm sure we didn't expect ourselves to be looking for people in this manner, but the state of the world today with technology and reality TV, pretty much everyone is at home on their asses in front of some glowing screen. Plus..we're all a bit thrifty to shell out for the pay sites, or avoidant since it would be the final admission that we are stuck in a rut.
I don't message unless i'm interested. For me to get interested, there would have to be something about you. Typically it's in the eyes, a keen fashion sense, witty repertoire, sincere smile or just that certain something. After my attempt, i leave it to fate.
Probably gonna try a blind date site..where at least people just want to actively do something.
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