Hum...well..setting up that server isn't that easy. Still learning some of the configurations and such. I was debating on 100megsfree.com or digitalrice.com...to temporarily host Behind the Smile..

So rather than keep changing the URL..I'm going to run on Blogspot...until I set up that server. PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE any of your links right now. I'm adjusting the redirect to link here at blogspot...and I'll let you know as soon as the new server is up. Until then the redirect should lead you there...if not click on this link ^_^

Took out the reblogger script...tired of seeing those errors. Going to add a comment system later...may add the same one as milly, sam and christina. Also added biggwould to the link list. Haven't seen Diana update in a while...so I will add her and others when I do the redesign. Really need to learn more HTML.

Status on the Server: Its basically built. AMD 400. RAM: Need to get a 128 stick. HDD: OS 6GB, Storage 2x 7.5GB. I'm gonna run a couple webpages off it. Primarily for the school. Mandrake 7.0.2 running Apache. Now I just need to test it before going live. (crossed fingers...lets see if I can get this done before Geocities stops my blogging...cutting it close 4-1-02)

Any suggestions or recommendations from anyone else who is doing this...email me please. Thanks.

Hey...things are looking good now. Although I started sending my resumes out again, on Wednesday I decided to walk around my local area...and simply drop off my resume at the offices. Cerritos is in a great area, near major freeways and quite a number of corporations…so the potential was good. I had a pretty warm reception at Delta Dental and EDS...which is walking distance from my house. Itz just a matter of time (I hope).

The cool thing is I got this email from a website I signed up for long time ago. Ok…Ok…I’ll admit it. I’m a geek. Especially when it comes to computer… itz a title I can live with….especially if it means a FREE CRUISE.

On 3/22/02 at 1:16 AM, (Ray Warriner) wrote:
> I would like to know more about which cruise I have qualified for.
I probably could get you on .NET Nirvana, too ...
.......................
Neil R. Bauman, Captain & CEO
Geek Cruises (www.GeekCruises.com)
A Division of Int'l. Technology Conferences, Inc.
1430 Parkinson Avenue, Palo Alto, CA 94301

First I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to reply…figured it may be spam in my account…as usual. But boy… this is looking a lot better. ^_^
Now I have to decide which one to choose. I think I’d go with the .Net or Linux…both of them are in the Caribbean. Hee hee

I wanted to set up the comment system and get people's opinion on this...but I'll wait till I create the new server. In the meantime...if you want to give me a suggestion...mail me at ray_misc@hotmail.com.

Every week I see her...I just think of her more and more...but this week Kristin Kreuk shot up to number one on the wife's list after tonite's episode of Smallville. WOW..when good girls go bad. Now for us to just meet....

Really good episode for all the actors. I loved how Jonathan Kent was playing the Dukes of Hazzard theme song before he was run off the road....classic.

Oh yeah...Who the master!! (sho nuff). So today I got that apache server working..Virtual hosting and all. So ray's website will be coming up soon. Actually..gotta test FTP configurations before going live. I also have to get Verizon to move the DSL line.

I've also officially decided to make the major life change. I started sending out resumes to everywhere.hawaii, texas, virginia, ny, new jersey...who knows. Whatever comes up first. Cali is my life..but I figure a job in Hawaii for a year couldn't hurt too much. ^_^

What is it about Age?

I was sitting online yesterday chatting with a college friend and we were just catching up. Talking about anything and everything, we eventually get to the topic of relationships. We were talking about where we meet people, and she made me realize that since the bulk of my activities involve APO...I tend to hang around college students the most.

(personal monologue)Now personally...age is nothing but a number to me. While growing up, I always favored my older cousins that would always spend time and play games with us...even though we were sometimes a decade apart in age. For me, I always remain true to myself and stay young at heart. Sometimes I even forget my age. It really bugs me at times when people make an issue of it. I look more at maturity and how one handles themselves.(/personal monologue)

So my friend Kathy comes down from Stockton for her spring break tour. Disneyland is one of her stops, so that give me the opportunity to see her again. Since she’s APO...we decide it would be cool to get the UCI members to come out…to hang out. So we decided to go to Downtown Disney. It was when that changed to Dave and Busters that I realized that just about everyone in UCI petitioning group is under 21. I’d have to say I have been spending most of my time with the UCI group...but I didn’t even realize that some of the people I have been hanging out with the most…were under 21. Again… it didn’t make a difference to me…but I just didn’t realize it.

Fast forward to the next day…at my work’s graduation ceremony. There I get comments that I look too young to be an Instructor and usually get mistaken as one of the students who are graduating that day.

So I don’t know… Just being me…no matter how old I am.

Resumes are being sent out.

People tell me to take the Hawaii job..but I am not really sure about that one. I figure cost of living is pretty high down there and there is only so much you can do on an island. Tourism is their biggest industry..but what would you think if you lived there and saw it all..everyday.I might see about doing it for a year maybe...so I'm going to apply anyways. Never know...could meet my Baywatch beauty of a wife out there. Lotta cuties out there ^_^

Hey everybody....I know its been sometime since the last update...so here's a couple things to mention.

1. Got Apache? - Got the webserver running in a test environment. Now gotta test to see if I can learn how to host the pages on it. BTW...Tried to do it with Red Hat...3 times. With Mandrake...first try. I'll figure that one out when I have more time.

2. Been really busy working at CEI and plus I started working Sundays at CSULA. Add to that I'm the network consultant for my old elementary school...so my plate of duties is quite full. Sadly I still feel that I need to find a more stable job and something I can enjoy more....which leads me into "3."

3. Virginia, Hawaii, or Anaheim? I've been sending out Resumes for sometime now..but with this economy..things haven't been great. Mostly half-heartedly, I'm just seeing what is out there. If I really feel pressured..the I'll push even more. With that in mind, I did get an email from Northrop Grumman. Itz a government support company just like the one I was working for prior to CEI. They are interested in me primarily due to my security clearance, but for whatever reason it may be...this is a genuine opportunity. Initially, they felt I may fit in a position in Virginia. The recent email stated that they have some opportunities in Hawaii and in a few weeks in Anaheim. So I've come to this crossroad in my life to try to determine where I want to be. Traveling is interesting..but do I really want to leave everything here behind?

oops...gotta get back to class...I'll write more later.

OK..thats freaky...
I was just checking the referring URLs to this blog..guess what
If you look up filipino superstition, dreams about death - you get me =/

Update....I emailed her..and she emailed back. Left my number..but we'll have to see what happens.
Only thing is she didn't show up to the Rededication. Oh well.=(

PS..
Nextel is pissing me off. Any suggestions on other services. (Damn I wish reblogger still worked )
Geocities is pissing me off too...stopping my FTP (free) service..therefore ending my blog... But Fear not...I'm looking at alternatives and other hosting options. ^_^. Time to learn Apache.and Linux

Err...so disappointed. Did you know when a company says they will keep your resume "on file" for a year or so...the don't really mean it.

I had applied at CSULA for an Information Tech position last year. I got the confirmation letter but was never called in for an interview. Of course the letter said they would keep the application on file for 3 years in case anything came up. Well yesterday I found the letter..and decided to call them. Obviously they had already filled the position...so I asked if there were any other Tech positions open. She then proceeds to tell me that since November, two other Infomation Tech positions had opened and now intereviewing. I asked.."Since my resume was on file...was I also applied to those positions?" she said no. I would still have to apply individually for each one.

So honestly? Whats the point in keeping the resume..if you don't look at it anyway? So for all those fellow job hunters out there...just keep applying.

Oh man..I'm feeling soo giddy....

I'm heading to UCR this week for the rededication ceremony for Alpha Phi Omega, the service fraternity that I still participate in. This week my home chapter of UCR has invited a number of alumni from the chapter to come back and rededicate themselves to the principles of the fraternity. Its all cool since I was probably going to head out there anyway..but now I'm usually giddy because I found out that one particular alumni that I had a crush on may possibily be there. (blush). Its been a few years since I've seen her..but DAMN...she was (hopefully still)...sooo cute. Now we'll have to see if I'll be able to talk to her when I get there. I found an email address..so I may send up that warm up intro... (to make sure the first time I see her isn't too wierd...but now comes the awkward phase.)

if/when I see her..will I be able to say anything? Yeah I can talk to people...speak in front of groups..but honestly..when I get near someone I'm particularly attracted to.....I shut down. It seems to happen to the best of us... Fear of rejection.. intimidation...low self esteem. Hey I'm fairly confident about my skills...work...dealing with people...etc.. But when it comes to starting a relationship...or even dating...I clam up. Hopefully I'll figure what to do by Friday...^_^

Especially for all the Filipinos in the house (or if you know Filipinos)...thanks to Kathy. The comedy of mr rex navarrete

I was going to blog a long message about this week...but I think I'm just going to sleep. This has been quite a busy week and I find that once I start writing I tend to write a lot. So just to let everyone know...I'm still alive. This week has been quite and experience...and I still have a picnic to deal with tomorrow...just to finish the week and my sanity off. =/

So...gonna write more later...and still have a lot to do. Be back for more details. =)

Ahh..Valentines Day. Happy Valentine's Day to everyone. You would think that I would actually look forward to this day...namely because I find myself to be more of the romantic type...but lately...it..like other holidays..seem to just pass by without particular notice. Don't get me wrong..I'm all about moonlight seranades, candle light dinners, romantic locations... But it obviously doesn't have much impact without that special someone in your life. And I definately miss having someone =/.

Otherwise..Things are great. The eyesight is terrific. I find myself reaching for my face occasionally, forgetting that there are no glasses to adjust or remove. Still a little blurry on somethings...but I've been told that it's all still part of that healing process. Going in for an exam today to check things out. Really this has given me a new outlook on life. The recent post (1/31/02) about moving on in relationships...and now this new self-confidence from the lasiks have given me a new motivation to succeed. I am still working at the school at part-time, but I am keeping myself busy consulting for my old elementary school as well as possibly a law firm. At the same time, I've stepped up my motivation to look for a new full time job.

I need to get back into my workout routine...but lately I've been pretty happy just playing Basketball with UCI. After a couple meetings, I headed out with some of the members (both guys and girls) and we've been playing a couple pick-up games. It's been fun. Likely going to be playing again on Fri. ^_^

So relationship wise...still single...not really looking as hard as I was before. I'm of the belief that when it happens...it will be when you least expect it.... (sadly its just been tooo long...damn =p ). I'm definately open to possibilities... (hahah...even thought of the show Blind Date...some of those guys are hopeless). The scary thing is I was joking with my cousin and checking out some personals on match.com. I sent out this one personal to some friends online...thinking I would hear (Ray...don't take this route...you'll find someone...you don't need personal ads). Instead...I hear...(maybe...your should try.) I guess it doesn't fall into my romantic perceptions of love to find it thru internet personals....but I don't discount it as a possibility.=P Oh well...we'll see when love hits ^_^.

You know...I thought about it later...and wondered why I even made those previous posts. The lasik one was ok..but the sexual harassment one was a little out there. I question myself why I made it public knowledge....but then I realize that of the people I know that read this...I would have told them about it anyway. Also I realize that blogging (although my posts are intermittant) have been a tool for me to keep up with people. I find myself every morning checking all the blogs on my list...just to see how people are doing and if they have posted something new. So I guess it has become a part of my life.

Now for the second story....good news but a bit scary. I suggest you read the bad news (previous post) first...so at least you can end in a good note.

Monday, I'm going under the knife. After thinking about it for the longest time, I am going to get lasik surgery done. I've been wearing glasses now since the 1988. This will be a big change for me. I did my research and have many friends this particular field. I've heard all the success stories...as well as the disasters. Actually..its rather interesting...a while back..when I was deciding to do the surgery...fox news ran a story about lasik disasters. I mean...come on now...these are your eyes. You mess them up...it will drastically change your life. When your looking for lasik surgery..don't let price be your only concern. So going back..I was watching this news segment on lasik...and how some people had actually come out with worse vision after the surgery. So of course this made me wary. The good news is that the doctor that "corrected" these vision disasters is the doctor that will be performing my surgery ^_^. So I'm really happy about that.

So ... Monday is the day.. I'm looking forward to it with fear and excitement. I made it thru the check up and was told I am an ideal candidate. Even with all these re-assurances ... it still is an operation. The process will be about an hour..and I have full vision that same day. So when I SEE you again...it will be without glasses.

here is an article with some risks indicated...but it does have a cool flash animation showing the procedure.

OK..bad news first...Beware...this is a bit graphic and disgusting.

As most of you know I'm a teacher of networking technology. I teach Microsoft Networking (MCSE) courses at a vocational school. My students range from kids right out of high school to adults going through a retraining or career change. I've been teaching for the past year and things between my students and me have always been great. I treat my students as equals...as opposed to the traditional teacher (knows everything) - student (knows nothing) relationship. Well this past week has been a little traumatic.

So I have this one student in class. Older man in his thirties, a bit quirky, but overall displaying a desire to learn. One of those overgrown nerd types. Well on Tues, I'm helping this student out with some problems on a worksheet. As I'm sitting next to him, I realize that he is a bit on display. (Remember that friends episode about phoebe's boyfriend … yeah...that one). So I ignore it and concentrate on the worksheet. Of course I'm embarrassed...but I also didn't want to embarrass him. I finish helping him solve a problem, and tell him to try the rest at home.

Next day (Wed), still working on subnetting problems in class. (Many people have problems with it). Fast forward to the end of class, I find myself helping him out again. This time I'm working the problems out on the board while he has moved to the seat in the front. Well...I SEE him again … yes… embarrassing again. This guy really has to get some pants ... sheesh. This time I strategically use my podium to block my view and concentrate on the problem. I felt I really should say something to him...but how do you tell someone that? Hey...please put on some pants! So I hoped that this wouldn't be a regular occurrence and finished what I had to do and went home.

Thursday, I get to work and am asked to call this student. I call the number to hear that he has some car problems and that he won't be in class today. I tell him that it will be ok and to take care of his car. He also says that he has something to apologize to me about something. I wasn't sure what it could be (I had a good idea) ... but I told him I wasn't offended by anything and not to worry. Again I tell him to just take care of his car and I would see him the next day.
Now...I'm thinking...I'll wait till he "apologizes" to find out what he thought he did. I would be really weird if I said..."everything is ok ... just wear pants next time"...just to find out he wanted to apologize about cutting me off during lecture or something ... so I play stupid and wait to see what happens.

Friday comes along and my student shows up. During a break, my student decides to apologize to me for what he did on Wednesday. I told him that I didn't know what he was talking about so I guess everything is ok. So he says...
****ATTENTION...NEXT SECTION IS NASTY AND DISGUSTING...READ WITH CAUTION...YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED****
So he says..."so you didn't see me playing with myself during your lecture?"
OH MY GOD..WHAT THE FUCK??? Shocked I said.."What?"
he replies "so I guess if you didn't see me I have nothing to apologize for."
Still in shock..."Um..well..I appreciate the apology...but I think you should keep that to yourself. I don't want to embarrass you or anything...so I'm just going to keep this between us."
He says ok...and I somehow get through the rest of class.
After that moment...things start flashing to me. I remembered how he asked me on Tues how old I was and if I was married. Then I started wondering if he was thinking about me while he was...well you know. UGHHH...still...UGHHH. While I was writing on the board..all I could think of is if he was thinking about me while I was lecturing. If he was also "pleasuring" himself in the back of class....I was so disgusted. I started to get this sick feeling in my stomach. So class finishes...and I am still reeling from the shock. I remembered that another instructor in the previous year was sexually assaulted by a student. The other student pinned the instructor to the wall and attempted to undo his pants. I thought to myself...FUCK that...if he comes close...I'm throwing punches.

With the student gone...I decided to talk to my supervisor. I realize I can be very forgiving of people...but I didn't want to have to explain the whole story to someone if it came to a fight. I informed my supervisor of the past events and that I was willing to let it go since there was only three weeks left in the course. As I was talking to the instructor (behind closed doors)...we began to realize more and more how abnormal this behavior was. At this same time...the student passes by the window of the supervisor's office. Oh shit...now this is getting freaky. We figure that he was walking out for the day and continue to talk about it. We had been talking for over an hour. The supervisor made me feel a little better and we decided that the school will talk to him on Monday. The likelihood is that he will be removed from school. I was relieved and start walking back to my classroom to get my stuff. My supervisor decides to walk with me on the slim chance that the student would still be there. I wasn't concerned..but we walked anyways. He supposedly signaled me..but a little to late....since as I open the door to the classroom..I find the student in there. OH FUCKING SHIT...what is going to happen now? My supervisor had walked away from the classroom, hoping I would follow..but instead I walked in.

So there I am, in an awkward situation with this student in front of me. He is thanking me for not saying anything and keeping it between us. I tell him...um yeah..I didn't want to embarrass him. He says ok..I'll wear pants more often...and if he wears shorts again...he'll try to keep IT in. I try to keep him at ease while I'm standing there panicking. Of course...during this whole time I'm freaking out.... I'm thinking...oh shit...he has been waiting in this room for me the whole time. He's checking to see if I said anything (since I was in the supervisor's room). And now I'm alone in this room. Where the fuck is my supervisor? and am I really stuttering while I'm talking to him? why is he walking closer to me? Finally this whole thing is over and he walks out.

My supervisor comes in with the technician, as the student is walking out. Great..my savior (sarcastic). He sits in the classroom with me for a while..as I become concerned that the student might be still outside. Now I'm really freaked. I'm looking all around while I'm getting into my car. Calling my work making sure that they don't give out my home number or address. Wondering what going back to work would be like...since the student may feel I betrayed him. There are no guards at me school so there would be nothing preventing him from just walking back into my class. If anything happens, I know my other students will be there... I'm just hoping that it doesn't get to that level. Some people are just sick. I'm just worried on what he may do next. Just have to get my mind off it...(Think happy thoughts..think happy thoughts).

Still thinking of the redesign...but have a couple other things to think about. Some major life changing things...so I think I'll post them as two seperate entries. One good and one not so good. Personally, I'm ok about everything now. Still looking for that new job..but otherwise things are ok. I finally broke a 1,000 hits...guess there are people out there reading this. ^_^